Being before Doing...

John 13:1-3 "It was just before the Passover Feast. Jesus knew that the time had come for him to leave this world and go to the father. Having loved his own who were in the world, he now showed them the full extent of His love. The evening meal was being served and the devil had already prompted Judas Iscariot, Son of Simon to betray Jesus. Jesus knew that the Father had put all things under his power, and that he had come from God and was returning to God"

This passage contains VITAL truth that I need deeply at the core of being. In context, John 13-20 talk about the greatest act of apostolic love and humility that has ever been seen. Beyond "sinless perfection", the excellencies of Jesus Christ in what he did FOR US cannot be touched. However, the verses above describe some of the internal reality of Jesus Christ the God-Man.

Prophetic story...

In 2006, the LORD gave me the following prophetic download. Since then, everything listed in this prophetic word has either come or is coming to pass before my eyes.

2007 is when it begins. In 2007 I will begin sending you to the nations. I am sending you in power. I will send you to Kenya. I will send you to Korea. You will go in My power
You must humble yourself. I say YOU MUST humble yourself as a great shaking will hit your life if you don’t. If you embrace humility, my shaking will only solidify you in what you know…in who you are.
I am going to shift and shake the structures around you. I am going to shift the international dept. There will be a shifting and restructuring. I am bringing in and placing new leaders. Have I not said that My house shall be a house of prayer for all nations? I am releasing many new leaders that must be set in place.
I will release the finances. I will release the key connections. As you humble yourself, I will make broken places a place of glory, the crooked places straight. You will see My glory upon your life first in the wisdom in how I shift things. You will then see My glory in power.

J.(edited out).... is to be a key friend to you. (edited out about J.) You are to raise up an army together who do not love your lives unto death.

I shall release the finances. I shall cause this work to flourish. There are many that must be equipped with humility, apostolic love as a weapon of war. I am bringing together the Mary of Bethany, the Deborah, and the Daniel anointing together.

I have ordained a massive solemn assembly in Korea this year (for 2007). There shall be a massive shaking in Korea this year. Do you hear the sound? I shall shift the foundation of this nation through intercession. I am bringing you back to your land to accomplish a shift in the spirit. It shall be a quake heard around the world. Look even to the ring of fire as I shall shift the plates in the Pacific.

Jess, I want you to set apart some time. If I send you with the power that I intend to in your current situation, you will be destroyed. I want to rewrite some of your emotional DNA. Who you are to Me is much more important than anything you can do for Me.

In 2007 and 2008, I have seen every part of this prophecy get fulfilled or begin coming into fulfillment. The year 2007 was incredible ministry-wise, culminating with seeing South Korea's elections (and a key Muslim Nation) literally shift through prayer and fasting.

In the midst of the incredible ministry, things started shifting in 2007 and then the whole International department shifted in 2008 (where I was in leadership). This and a few other things ugly discoveries caused a significant amount of pain in 2008. Why did God do (or allow)this? The last phrase (which I thought was a minor point at the time) is actually the key point of the whole prophecy.
Who you are to Me is much more important than anything you can do for Me.

Last summer in 2008, a 40-day fast was called by Lou Engle and Mike Bickle around Exodus 33:18 and wrapping our face in the mantle of God's name. The whole fast was about this critical truth...highlighted in John 13:1-3. It also explains why God suddenly ended my fast on 7/16/2008 and the Spirit of God broke in at the 8-10am set...and let me know what was happening (it was perhaps the hour where God released breakthrough in the heavenlies for the nation of Myanmar).

What ever my eventual position or ministry function(s) before people, this truth is CRITICAL for me to be deeply rooted and grounded in. It is the secret glory (that I don't understand well at all) behind the Cross!

Who I am before God (as a friend, a son, the Bride, a priest etc.-sealed with unquenchable, unstoppable fiery love for Jesus) is more important than what I end up "doing" for God in the natural (Whether taking a nap or raising the dead).